History PART II

okay so on with more history... yay!! right?? anyway.. We are in January of 2006.. my employer and doctor has now told me to stop trying and that he will refer me to a fertility clinic.. bittersweet... of course i want a baby and if that means with help, then so be it, but then it also means something must be wrong with me or its just not the Lord's timing..
so on January 9.. Dr Rath tells me to stop... it was on this day that i told him that i had prayed for quads.. whatever the Lord wants to give me... he said something like.. "I dont think you want to pray for that"... i did ask him if i got pregnant with more than twins if he would still deliver them, he said if i got pregnant with triplets and was doing good than he might, but they might also need to be airlifted for a NICU since the hospital that he delivers at doesnt have one.. he said anything more than that i would have to find a doctor who delivers at a hospital that has a NICU.. well needless to say i no longer prayed for quads but still prayed for at least one... im serious i maybe prayed for quads twice but thats it during my inferility, although if thats what the Lord wanted me to have ID TAKE IT!!! ...
i have an appointment scheduled for January 26 at a fertility clinic.. by the time we are going to the appointment i am seven days late... whats going on.. im never late.. my nurse did tell me that sometimes people come in and are already pregnant... HOPE!!! well they did a pregnancy test and sadly it came back negative.. they then scheduled me for a Hysterosalpingogram and Tubal recanulization... oh joy.. i remembered how my last one went.. im not looking forward to this one.. GREAT!!! so on February 6 was my procedure.. i was so nervous... VERY nervous.. bobby went with me because they, thankfully, we're going to give me some type of sedative... when the nurse was prepping me, taking my blood pressure, checking my pulse, she asked me if i wsa nervous, bobby looked at the machine that had the numbers and said my heart was going extremely FAST... she was very KIND and tried wholeheartedly to calm me down she got me warm blankets, because i had started to shake... and as she was getting the sedative ready bobby and i prayed... i guess i calmed down enough due to prayer and her prodding me that she was able to put the iv in... we went to the room that we were going to do the precedure... she gave me some of the sedative... she told me then that she likes to start with the most minimum amount and give more as i need it... so she gives me the minimum amount of sedative and im fine then all of a sudden its like im fighting sleep.... and laying there not usually in the most comfortable of positions and i am fast asleep... she came to up to ask me something and i was like " yeah.. i think its working.." i heard her chuckle... and then i was out again... the doctor came in... introduced himself to me, and i was like " uh huh.." so he started... and i was out again.. at one point he was like "mrs wright... mrs wright??? mrs wright wake up a little and lift your hips"... "okay".. and out with my hips raised.. then the next thing i knew he and the nurse come up to me and say they are done and that everything was good.. equal spillage and that he didnt think they were blocked to begin with... (of course i dont remember this, they later told bobby all of this too)... so the nurse is walking me out to get dressed and for me to see bobby... i see bobby right when im walking out the door... and im told i very loudly said " i didnt feel a thing!!!" both he and the nurse started laughing.. bobby and the nurse were talking as i got dresseed and she was amazed at how much the minimal amount of sedative affected me she never had to give me anymore than the first dose.. ... bobby took me to my moms house so that he could go to work... and as we were driving we heard a siren and an ambulance drove by and bobby taking advantage of my "drunken behavior" (i was later told)said " oohhh andrea look at the pretty lights!!" he said my reaction was "oohh pretty.." and then out again... i have never been drunk, but from what im told of how i acted it sure seemed like i was.. bobby said it was pretty funny sight to see..
so now we wait... we wait to see if we can do this one more time without "real" fertility help and to no avail we didnt... had another FC (fertility center) appointment on Feb. 22... i had started my period... they then start me on a fertility drug "clomid".. we decide that we are going to try one more month with the clomid but no type of procedures to get pregnant.. i have to go the fc now many times MANY times during my cycle... i go back three more times during this cycle which now has put us into the middle of March... March 20... negative pregnancy test... we're going to have to do a procedure now, again bittersweet...
so on my third cycle whilest going to the FC i start my period on MArch 22, go in to the FC on MArch 24 for my sono (not a fun pregnancy sono), start my clomid on the 26... am told i have two follicles (eggs) one 12mm and on 11mm, test my urine for a positve LH surge.. went in on April 2 for another sono... April 4 another sono... i am told that i have FIVE follicles.. April 6.. procedure day.. we decided with our Dr's advice to do IUI or AI or Intrauterine insemination or aka Artifical Insemination.. ... after our IUI bobby and i went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast and then to a movie and had movie nachos.. we saw a movie but i cannot remember which one right now.. but we had a fun time.. the theater was empty and we just enjoyed these little "dates"... had some bloodwork on april 12.. and on APril 19 a pregnancy test.. ... ... negative...
so start another cycle i went in on April 24 for my inital started clomid on the 26.. test urine for positive LH surge... go in MAy 3 for my first sono to check follicles.. May 5 our second IUI... we again went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast went to the movies saw Nacho Libre and ate movie nachos and again enjoyed our time together.. go in on the 11 for bloodwork... May 14.. the HARDEST mothers day i have ever had... so SAD.. i cried the whole time at church.. one of my friends, Rebekah, came over and hugged and prayed fro me the whole time i cried... my sister sat beside me holding my hand and cried... my mom sitting by my sister saw me and cried.. my poor husband sitting beside me sat there with his head down feeling lost and not knowing what to do... was afraid to put his hands on me for fear it would tear him up as well.. (i am crying again while i write this) May 18... pregnancy test.. ... .... ... negative.. each time i would get the call that my test came back negative i would call bobby crying and say draw out some more money from the bank.. and he would calmly say its okay baby.. it'll happen... dont worry... and i love you... it got to the point that if he saw the call was from me and then heard me crying he would say "ohhh... its okay.. well try again.." such a sweet and awesome husband... such a patient husband.. so we wait for my next cycle to start...
May 23.. start my cycle.. May 26 go in for sono.. 27 start clomid.. JUne 2 start testing urine.. June 3 sono for follicle sizes we have 2 follicles.. schedule the IUI for Monday June 5... But on Sunday JUne 4 as bobby and i are sitting at our house I CRY.. and i cry hard.. this will be our third IUI if it doesnt happen this time my doctor is saying we are going to have to do something different.. different drugs, different procedure.. something different.. GREAT.. in my own mind.. i have given up if we dont get pregnant, im not going back, but not just that.. i want to quit my job too, it is getting TOO hard seeing all the pregnant girls come in and out.. it was during my infertility i knew of at least 23 girls (that i know personally that got pregnant) not mention all the ones i saw at my place of work.. it was too much... in bobbys own mind, he has given up, but we dont say anything outloud, me because what if i change my mind and want to try another cycle, bobby because he doesnt want me to know hes lost hope.. so we go in on June 5 for our IUI.. go to Cracker Barrel for breakfast go to the movies see the Pirates of the Caribbean 2 Dead Mans Chest.. i remember this because one of the creatures i thought was ugly and would close my eyes whenever he was on the screen, and actually through some of it fell asleep... i go in for some bloodwork on June 12 for my Progesterone and Estradiol levels.. June 14 my stomach has this VERY tight feeling... June 15 2 years after we have decieded to try for a baby, and still no baby.. my stomach though is still feeling very tight.. kinda like a TIGHT bloated feeling.. June 16.. still feeling the tight sensation.. June 18 Fathers Day... at our church they have a baby dedication on fathers day and although it was hard on me and i still cried.. Mothers day was the hardest.. June 19.. pregnancy test day.. .. ... ... POSITIVE!!!!!! my number is 643... i was at my moms house waiting for the phone call... my aunt and uncle and their boys from El Paso we're down visiting when i got the call.. they didnt know where my mom had gone that morning (she went with me whenever bobby didnt to the FC)... so i ran to my moms room, went into her closet and took the call.. My favorite nurse who went through most of this time with me called me. Marisol.. I WAS PREGNANT.. I call bobby there in my moms closet.. im thinking im going to joke around and say that he needs to draw more money out of the bank for another cycle, but once i hear his voice im crying he hears this crying and thinks of great.. not pregnant... than i tell him.. IM PREGNANT!!!!! he says "really???" and i am so happy im laughing and crying and saying YES.. (although i do have to go back in two days to make sure my numbers double) but Marisol said i was pregnant.. so my mom hears my crying and is starting to come down the hall.. and i run out of her room, she sees that im crying but that im smiling... we go into her room and cry right there in the doorway hugging... IM PREGNANT... i call my VERY good friend who prayed and advised me through ALL of this Becky, then my pastor Mr. Biddison as he and his wife were praying for us as well... and my other friend Rebekah (who comforted me on mothers day)... and then my brother, my sister, my dad, then go out and tell my uncle and aunt... we still have caution because my numbers HAVE to double in two days.. so my mom and i go back on June 21... as we are waiting for the phone call, my mom, my sister, my aunt and uncle and the boys go shopping... i get the call as we are shopping that my numbers are 1666.. more than.. double... i again call bobby and tell him i am most definately pregnant... my numbers more than doubled and then start all my phone calls again to tell everyone that my numbers DID double... I AM PREGNANT!!! VERY HAPPILY AND EXCITEDLY HAPPY!!!

well this concludes History PART II... i know that this is really more for me so that i dont forget, but i do hope you enjoyed it too... PART III will be the pregnancy.. PART IV will be birth and a day in the life of quads..

i will probably post a non-history post this week, so watch out for it...

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